Dear Mimicus,

I read your other posts and you come across as quite self-reliant and strong person. I dunno if this will help but i want to tell you a bit about my story so far – i too was and still am quite chubby and totally anxious at social situations as a teen. It was partly introversion nd partly lack of confidence. I did manage to make one or two close friends nd that sustained but deep down i believed i was not good at anything except grades. I always felt everyone was better and felt like an unwanted person. These thoughts were a result of bullying, a long tryst with mean friends. By the time i made it to college, i was still the same closed off person – i did make some friends but didnt go places, didnt make the effort to be in touch – partly because i was depressed and also in a way lot of limiting beliefs about myself. Truth be said, we are all growing and some days, i still feel like the oddest person ever no one wants but i fight it – some of it has to do with reaching out to others too- sometimes it works, sometimes it doesnt – when we really connect with someone we realize how much we have in common in terms of experience, feelings or temperament – the point is, dont believe every thought you think – everyone has both good and bad – there are a few who will really get you, some who are good company and sum u should run south of. Reach out despite yourself, try new things and you might be surprised. Also if you can, try watching “Perks of being a wallflower” – i learnt quite a bit from that movie.