Thank you for your input Ashley!

The whole thing is an emotional mess almost hour to hour. For example today at lunch he came home and said he was perfectly fine now about things and seemed to be out of his “clinging” mindset. He is a good father, the kids do love him, and I see moments where I feel things could be okay if I ‘wait it out’, but then I realize what I’m experiencing in those good moments now is how I want things to be if we were ‘friends’ sharing parenting duties….as I still just can’t bring myself to honestly provide physical intimacy anymore.

As for what you said about providing a good example of a healthy relationship to my children, that is totally true, and I should know better considering my own parents separated when I was almost done high school….and recall thinking “Why didn’t they just move on sooner?”.

Honestly the only thing holding me back at this point is being scared of breaking my kids’ hearts by separating their family as they’ve known it so far….they’re such happy little souls!