It’s been 3 months since we broke up. I thought I was living happily. Until I started missing him and crying the entire night again.
I wanted to write a letter to him to tell him how much I love him, but all my friends told me not to do it. They said that he should already know.

‘If after everything you’ve done for him, he still doesn’t know then he does not deserve to know.’

So I gave up writing a letter. But I still couldn’t let it go. I desperately just want him to acknowledge my love, before I fully let go of everything. I’ve even played a song for him. I tried so hard to not cry and eventually broke down after it.

I didn’t email the link to him or anything yet. I wanted to send a scheduled email with the link inside for his birthday 3 years later dated now.

Why 3 years later? Because i can’t do it now. Because… I just can’t contact him now. I just can’t do it. If i sent it later, i might already have forgotten all my feelings. To me, what matters most is the present. If I can give the love in my present to him in the future, I’m happy. I just can’t watch my love towards him rot and die away like this. I truly love him, my feelings are precious to me. I honestly think it should be acknowledge.

Am I being foolish?

p/s: I might look and sound like I’m really young in the video but I’m seriously not. so no, I’m not a teenager with puppy love.