Dear cahath,
welcome to the club! :-)))
Please know that you are not alone, and that you will very probably be just fine!
This phase in your life feels very threatening: Many options have already closed, still there is no path carved out yet, and you have lots of things to decide about your life, and to reflect on the decisions you have already made…
You said you never felt this way before – I would say that this is a very good sign! I have struggled with anxiety and depression all my life, but a friend of mine experienced just the same as you: At the end of our studies she fell into a deep dark hole, but did not know how to handle it, because she never felt that way. In her case – and maybe in yours, too – it was a part of growing up, of starting to take responsibility and taking care of herself… She is great now, but much wiser and less superficial.

Be brave! Whatever you are feeling, it is there to teach you something and make you look at something! Bravery means to look at your feelings honestly and don’t surpress them.
Take care of yourself! Your job in the world is not to be perfect or to fulfill expectations, but to become yourself and take care of the person you are as if you were your best friend…
This is the part where you find out about yourself and about your weaknesses. If you accept them and are kind to yourself they will make you stronger!
And remember that you are not alone. Get help if you need it!

I wish you the very best!!!

• This reply was modified 9 years, 9 months ago by Kath.