Dear lili-lili

What a cheerfull name you choose! You say you lack fulfillment from your life. But on the other hand you don’t live the life you want to because you act according to other people’s expectations. You say you act driven by the emotion of fear. What is it that you fear? Other people’s reaction if you start being yourself or doing things you actually like?

I think in order to appreciate and find meaning to your life you must be true to yourself and to others. That way you will love yourself and you will find other people who love you for who you are.

I think you can follow your inner will, but you are afraid because you don’t know the outcome.
Well you can’t control the outcome, but the only path of self loving is self exposing.

Take care
George