Thanks Daughterearth, and Kat…I appreciate it.

@Kat, the times I just break down and cry aren’t just one offs, even after these 3 months I will still just feel it all again, hell, there’s a simple 4 keys on piano I can play that will make me tear up because it reminds me of a memory, just like that…

Not much made me happy before her, so the life I’m ‘returning to’ isn’t anything special, nothing in my life was special until she came into it. My friends may think I’m okay eventually because at times I act okay, when deep down I’m really not, and it’s clear I won’t be for a long time, I have maybe ONE or two friends I can speak to about something as personal as this but they can’t relate in any way or even begin to understand my pain…it’s still hard thinking about how to approach this now. I know time will heal, and it’s different for everyone, but I know how I am emotionally, and going off that I have a strong feeling that I’ll be in this painful mess for a very long time, and it scares me, I don’t want to be like this for a year+, but it looks like I will be…