Dear Rosecarman,

thank you for your helpful response! I’ve already felt some relief when I read it today. It rings very true what you said about vulnerability and how it’s easier to keep partners at a safe distance if you’re not willing to face that fear of being hurt. I recognise myself in this, but I’m also trying to work on my trust issues and on becoming more open in the future. Also, I’ve heard from friends before that I’m someone who’s looking for challenges, not only in my love life, but in all kinds of different ways. Maybe that’s all a part of my inner feeling of restlessness.
I hope that the confusion about what I actually want will lift soon and that I’ll be able to truly enjoy being close to someone else then. I’ve always liked the idea of sharing my wanderlust with someone else, so I can’t imagine being with a person that’s not as curious about seeing other parts of the world as I am, but you never know. Maybe that’ll also change as I get to know myself better and become more mature.
It’s sounds as if you’re past your ‘infatuation phase’ with impossible guys, and I’m glad about that 🙂 hope I’ll get there too!

love, Kassi