Thank you for taking the time to help me, it means a lot, especially with how alone i feel at the moment. I will read the books you have recommended to see if they will help me although I feel that talking to my family will not be of any use. My family think I create these problems myself and that I should just get over them. Ive tried to discuss this with them before but it didn’t help. I recently found out my mum used to moan about how I was acting to my brother and used to tell him things I had told her in confidence. They except me to sort all the family problems as if i am the only person causing them.

I have an image in my head of the person I want to be. I have tried and tried to be this person but I cant seem to manage it. I try to eat healthy but I am a pescitarian and I dislike vegetables and salads. I have tried to eat them but I have an issue with them and can barely put them in my mouth without retching. Everything just feels like a challenge. Every morning I get up and just have no motivation to do anything.