Hey thethinker2015,

I totally understand how you feel, forgiveness can be one of the hardest thing to do. But you have to think of yourself and the end goal that you are hoping to achieve. In this case I assume patching the holes in your marriage? I have just ended a relationship were it was constant arguing and saying sorry but the sorry was never actually taken on board. It left issues festering and in the end walking away was the only option I had. When you hold onto that anger it changes you as a person and it affects the relationship with the person that you love. I do not regret walking away even though it was painful it was the right thing to do, but you have to think of yourself maybe taking time away will help you to fully see what it is you want? It is a massive cliche but life is really too short and not forgiving things that have been said in the heat of the moment can be the worst thing to do. and letting go can make you happier.
I’m sorry for waffling and I hope I provided at least a little help.
I hope it all works out somehow for you x