Hi Jade
I was in somewhere a similar position 3 years+ back, which is kinda the time u are intending to time the sending of your email into the future. I hope to share it, mayb it will give some perspective in the best case scenario 🙂

Then, i thought i will never move on, it looked so hard so bleak so dark at that time. During moments of light, i was thankful things did not work out cos i knew it wasnt right. In moments of darkness, i wished and wished things could be different that i cannot forgive myself of wasting my own time by not being stronger (whether during or after the r/s). I definitely tried to reach out to him to pour out those emotions, and I said things that looking back now with hindsight, was unnecessary.

With hindsight, it was not necesary for me to say anymore after it was over. Nothing said could turn back time, or change the way things turned out. The more i repeated it in my head, the more i felt dragged back inch by inch from the baby steps i took in moving on. It took me 9 months and a stint in europe to get past the impact of that failed r/s. That hurt never truly went away, but i compartmentalised it and I am so glad its gone now (3 years on).

Now i have a new life, with someone else and i actually wished I met this present someone those years then… so u see, u never know. Before i met this someone 1.5 years ago, i was giving up on r/s becos the last one hit me so bad. Time changes things, and sometimes that heals us.

Good luck to building a better life!