Matt, you are not rusty!

You’re right, I feel I can’t trust my heart or some people I loved. Right before I left the original organization, I took out a large loan, so that intensified everything financially. These are all details that may or may not matter and I appreciate the input. That being said, the usual supportive suspects are all there in force, as much as they can be considering the circumstances. I count my blessings in many ways.
To use the nest metaphor- yes! It was a toxic work environment and I had outgrown it. I feel like I landed in another that’s got great potential but has another variety of rotten egg in it! I’m angry that it was taking my focus from doing the work I enjoy and feel good at, (and I do love parts of this work when I can concentrate, but not others, like chasing after money and communication), plus other creative work, plus my loved ones. I do want to see the project through, and it would help me considerably financially, but I could figure out other avenues, as well. My friend and I are hoping to arrange for a different point of contact, which would help everyone and free me up. I can let go of the financial part of it. My friend paying gives me a little breathing room. She’s brilliant, and between us, if the relative’s project is supposed to happen in conjunction with hers, it will. I’m still doing her project regardless and it was first in line.

Any further words of wisdom for what to do with the family dynamic? I do feel betrayed, angry and anxious about spending time with my relative. My family is going through a tough time and this shouldn’t be part of our lives. I’m ready to learn, but am new at the how of it.

Many thanks for your valuable insight!