i never understood it when people said “we love each other but we cant be together”, like, how is that possible..cant people “choose” to be with each other regardless of how other people feel or circumstances…and then…”it happened to me”…i cant be with the one i love, and it tore / is tearing me apart..suicidal some times, and blackness…but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

i did mindfulness, meditation, compartmentalazation, reclamation and various other techniques to support my journey back to wholeness….only to find, its not her that i miss…its whats “lacking in me” that is the core issue..and until i resolve that i will ALWAYS fall into darkness…

just my opinion…and my heart goes out to you as a fellow sufferer… but you can decide to suffer or not suffer, its up to you, and one thing i found was… suffering doesnt change the situation at all..think about it