Dear rodrigo:
I like your openness. You mentioned it in several of your posts. I like it very much because it means to me that you are likely to succeed in your personal development goal. You feel better now (still, I hope) and like you wrote- it will not stay this way forever or for very long. Feelings change like the weather and part of mindfulness is accepting that feelings change so it doesn’t come as an unpleasant SURPRISE every time a good feeling goes away. I am learning to be good to myself, to not abandon myself when i feel tired or sad or scared- to still be there for myself. Just like you wouldn’t as a parent leave a child when he/ she is sad and only be there for the child when he/ she is happy. Be there for yourself when you feel down- not by overthinking- but by doing what you did today, meditate, calm your mind. The worse time to try to figure things out intellectually is when you are feeling badly, when you are distressed. So RETURN to a state of CALM first. Don’t overthink when you are down or feeling distressed.

Do what works. You will not always feel so good during or after meditation- but don’t give up- focusing on your breath meditation works for millions. It works.

Take care, ridrigo. I think you have it in you to make your life better. Be patient with yourself.
anita