Hey Pat,
The quote, “If you seek it, you will never find it.” comes to mind here. Happiness and peace aren’t destinations or goals to reach, they are a state of being. In that state you are overcome with appreciation, gratitude, joy, and acceptance. However, when you focus on what you don’t have, where you should be, or how things could’ve gone, you are incapable of being in a that happy state of being.

Appreciation for everything you have, gratitude for all life, find joy in simplicity, and acceptance for who you are, where you are, and what you have the ability to do in this moment.

It takes time, dedication, and discipline but once you begin on this path, happiness is found everywhere. Don’t believe what you think you know or understand. Surround yourself with appreciation, gratitude, joy, and acceptance in all that you do and happiness will engulf you.

Thepathofaronin.blogspot.com is my personal blog and may offer more useful suggestions. Good luck my friend.