Hi, thanks I do need to get better at that. Just yesterday someone rang from a guy at work from another’s company’s human resources and I immediately panicked thinking he’d got an interview or something, but they were just phoning for a reference. I jump to the worst conclusion all the time because I feel like I wouldn’t be able to handle things if the worst thing did happen and it would also stop me from being able to go in the direction I want.

Ie. if someone left and I then requested a store transfer I would probably be denied it because of staffing issues.

I’ve written to my hr to see what the situation is with the holidays and if the answer is no sorry then at least I know what my options are. Then comes the guilt if I do decide to transfer