Dear Denise:
Maybe it will help you to think back to the origin of these feelings in you: did you feel as a child left out, being second (or third, etc.) to someone else? Did you feel that you didn’t get the attention you needed and someone else got it instead? Were you envious as a child/ teenager of those who got the attention, the positive attention that you were not getting?

If you find this line of thinking worthy of your time and attention, please let me know, and we will communicate further.
anita