Hey Christopher.m,

Great to hear from you again! I recently took a 4-day vacation out of town and it sorta helped me heal.

The pain/humiliation still lingers as I walked through the door of my office this morning especially since I just found out that we’ll be working together for a project. As direct partners.

I probably have the strength to take on what other people say now, but I just hope that the quality of work does not overlap with my issues with her. I am getting anxious since my boss is somewhat aware of our past but only to a shallow level.

Still, I really pray that this would stop completely and I know it wouldn’t.

Mindfulness is certainly key to ease panic attacks and anxieties during my breaks…but her presence is just a thorn in my everyday life. Hoping to stick through the year as well that I will be working with her since I lost the urge to apply for companies (they find out I have a bond, and it’s a big NO to them)

Please pray for my hurdles I experience in the office as I tend to fall into depression again. But I do still listen to everyone’s advice here and it has helped ease my depressive thoughts by 60-70% per work day.

With love to the community,

Me