Thank you for your answers and new perspectives on the matter, it really helps 🙂

I totally agree with both of you. Since I chose to move before talking to him again, I should not give up on my plan – since this is something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time. Not that I was willing to give up, but since I’m a little restraint financially and my plan does not have a deadline, I told myself I would go once my situation will be more favorable.

I really don’t want to give up on that because this the only thing I’m sure I really want to do. I don’t know why but I have to.

Anita, this is EXACTLY my mindset. It’s so hard living with that. I can never make a decision I’m sure of because I’m always thinking about all the possibilities, weighing the pros and the cons forever… It’s so tiring and frustrating, sometimes I wish someone could take all the decisions for me and tell me what to do.

About him wanting to change my mind, I think he said that because he feels like he has a second chance to be with me and he hopes this time it won’t fail. I don’t think he would do anything too dramatic to prevent me from moving. In fact he’s pretty supportive in general. We’re both artists and he knows me very well and I think if he gets that it is important for me to achieve this thing I want to, then he’ll understand. He knows how indecisive I am and he said he’ll always be my friend no matter what. I just don’t want to hurt him again and push him away and not wanting to be my friend anymore. Even if we just talk every once in a while, I really value our relationship.

What I’m afraid of though is regretting not trying with him. That’s why I think I should see him. To clarify things and see how I feel around him. If we’re still the flirty-friends or more. I think it can help if I tell him how I feel about it all.

I wanted to see him face to face because texting can be misleading sometimes. And also because he wants to talk to me about some of his projects. What do you think?