I always say how you are what you think , life isn’t easy specially when living aboard with your husband and finding your way in life but it’s easy to go down that spiral of negative emotions always think and know you are at your best and it could be worst . On a different note I recommend reading pastor Rick Warrens books ” The purpose driven life” I am not in no way into much of Jesus more of a spiritual person but the book is really good and only talks about why you’re on earth for . Just a recommendation if anyone needs a good book to read !