Dear pranit123:
It will not be humble of me to say: I know ALL about being self conscious, or: I know exactly how you feel. The thing is I experienced a whole lot of being overly self conscious to the point of paralysis. I did wrongly think that “everyone” around me had it together, that they were all normal and i was the freak, the exception. I thought that one day when I somehow get it right, that I will join the normal people. Years later, decades later, when I healed just enough- what a disappointment it was to find out that there was no EVERYONE, only many, many individuals and none of them had it all together, so many problems, so many exceptions to the “everyone” that there was no such entity as “everyone.” I tried so hard to joing “everyone” and found out there was none to join. What a let down. It is that part of myself (“Ego” in Buddhism thinking and “Superego” in Freudan) that told me what was not true. It is when we do not see the truth of how things are, that we suffer unnecessarily.
anita