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Dear Abhishek:
I read again your original post and my response to your original post. My response to your original post was so wrong. I am humbled. I jumped into wrong assumptions, that she was dishonest and manipulative with you and that you were sort of her victim. I am amazed now by my blindness at that point and how wrongly I perceived the issue. I hope I am more correct now:
I see no evidence that she was dishonest or manipulative with you. I do see a problem with the mode of communication, Facebook messaging. That creates lots of problems and as a primary mode of communication is not a good idea. A Facebook friendship is not the same as face to face friendship. In the Facebook friendship she gets lots of messages from many people (being as popular as you say she is) and therefore is distracted. She is also busy with other things. On Facebook you can leave long, long messages and you can’t tell when she had enough. She can’t stop you before your message gets too long for her. And so on.
You wrote: “I just wanted reassurance from her that ‘Yes, I made a mistake Abhishek by avoiding you. I should have told you that I was ignoring you to give you some time to move on. Sorry, But I am your friend’.” First if she did tell you she was ignoring you, she wouldn’t have been ignoring you.
It was hard for me to read all your posts. It is very tiring. I can imagine others may have the same problem as well. In your writing you go on and on and on and it is distressing for me to follow. Your thinking is muddled or “all over the place.” It is not clear to me. What is it that you want from her? To admit guilt? To heal all her problems so that she can love you?
I do not know. Obviously contact with her is causing you suffering and therefore I hope you remove yourself from contacting her, especially on Facebook. If you have any contact with her- or with a future love interest or female friend- do it IN PERSON.
And then, I suggest psychotherapy so that your thinking gets clearer, that you become more aware of what you need and what you want and how to go about it.
I regret my previous jumping-to-conclusions. I believe I am more on the mark now. It is about seeing and then SEEING MORE clearly. I am in that process. I hope you are too.
anita