I am Sorry for writing long posts.
I don’t want her to admit guilt or something. May be I couldn’t express it properly. I will be concise now.

The thing is I believe you guys think that I sent her messages as long as I am writing right now. Nope, it was about the size of a short paragraph having 5-6 lines. It’s just that I had never written messages like these on Facebook to anyone. That is why I am saying ‘long messages’ . Also I sent about 4-5 messages like these in a span of 4-5 months. The reason for sending 4-5 messages was that initially I asked her the reason for suddenly ignoring me which I could sense(and like I said it was true that she wanted to not talk for a while to give me some time to move on). She could have then told me the reason. I would have appreciated her honesty. But instead of that she replied ‘I don’t want to think about it’. Then I stopped messaging but once in a while she would message me saying hello and all. If she wanted to give me time to move on, I couldn’t understand why she stopped talking for about a month, then when I asked her the reason she just avoided it and then started messaging as if nothing happened.

I wasn’t waiting for her to love me. No, it’s just that I wasn’t sure of continuing the friendship, as I liked her so it was difficult to stay in touch and also sensed some unwillingness to speak the truth on her part. But did not know if breaking all contacts without listening to her reasons was good or not.

That is what I hold on for so long.

I never thought that she was manipulating me just felt that her behavior is awkward.