Hey Anita

Thanks for replying. By Pdoc I mean psychiatrist. Yeah, SSRI was what made me this bad- might have got better without it but such a poisonous drug- it has wrecked me.

I gave up on CBT- bad therapist- a sarcastic woman. Find mindfulness hard as I’d have to practice it 24/7. Have been offered everything inc psychologist but have given up driving and can’t go out alone- hard to get there…at wits end basically. Can’t come to terms with treatment resistant depression. Spend all my time in either avoidance (bed), distraction (Internet, tiny exchange of words with other half) or major crying.

Sounds like you have a lot going on too. Do hope your methods are working for you.How do you use this site for mindfulness? No idea how to make that work because as soon as I’m not mindful I’m crying.

Hopeful
Cheerytree