Dear Glet:
You expressed a great attitude to overcome your past and live in the present. Yet you cannot delete your past- it is anchored in your neurons, in between your ears, the memories of what happened and how you felt. The emotional memories in your neurons will continue to be triggered by current events and challenges, something unfortunately you have to live with. The “solution” (simplified much…) is to slowly remove those memories from where they are and place them in the “autobiographical memory” – literally forming new connections in your brain so that the memories of the past traumas are reprocessed and no longer cause the ongoing triggering. They become something that happened in the past instead of something that keep happening.

Through practice and patience and time you create a space between the past and the present.
anita