Hello Nekoshema

I am struggling with a bit similar things as you, so i wouldn’t be the best person to give you advice.

[I am a good cook but I pursued culinary because people said I should not because I was passionate.]

I don’t really understand this sentence, it might be because English is not my first language..
It seems you’re unsure to know what you want.
And also, it sounds like what makes it extra confusing for you is that there seem to be many people around you to tell you what they think you should do and you don’t know if you should follow their advice.
I don’t know if it makes sence what they say, and it might give you some things to think about, but the only person who can decide what’s best for you, is probably only yourself. So I hope that you will find your own voice, and see the advice of other people just as something to consider, not as guidelines.
Of course it can be a lot more scary if we take the decisions ourselves. But, for example, farming might be very hard, but then there are people that do it and love the hard work, because that’s what they enjoy – even though many people will think they’re crazy.

You write that you are sick of doing certain jobs, it sounds like you are working in these kind of jobs since quite a while..? I can imagine that doing work you don’t like for long time, is not helping you to connect with what you do enjoy.

I don’t know if there would be a possibility to try out these things that you like or that you think you would like to do. For examply by volunteering? I did quite a bit of volunteering work myself and it did help me in some ways, to see what kind of activity and environment is really good for me. You have already some ideas, maybe you can just start with those and see how you like them.
Of course, i don’t know if that is possible for you…

Good luck.