Hi Axuda

I am sorry to hear about your wife. I think we have some similar parts that we are both trying to make our partner happy, but in the end had to let them go. It is nice to know that you forgave her and that you are now focusing your time and energy on other parts of your life. With that much effort that you are willing to put, I am sure that your next partner will be lucky to have you.

Since he cant react, I reacted for him by being very disappointed in myself instead. I think you are right that I should start self forgiveness. I’m not special. No one is perfect, and we all have regrets. Thank you for your post.

Hello Inky
Yes I really try hard everyday to stay kind. So moments where I slip are unforgivable for me. I feel like a hypocrite since it was so unlike me to behave that way.
Thank you for reminding me as well that I’m only human and make mistakes along the way. Thank you for the tip as well. I never really thought about approaching it in a light manner to save his feelings.