Thank you.. thats very insightful.. however, sometimes i really want him.. and the thought that i will never see him again burns me alive.. i always want to see him and be with him for the rest of my life. even if its impossible i belive that nothing is impossible so sometimes i feel like i should try my best to do whatever it takes to be wit him in case he changes his mind. should i stop thinking that? how u do accept things ? i feel like i am giving up if i stop trying and i dont want to give him up..