Hey there

wow I am so so sorry for everything that happened to you…
and you are one strong lady for being able to get away from all of that and even trying to move on from your past..
you coming here to talk about it is already a great step and I applaud you for that..
what your mum did to you selling you as a sex toy is disgusting…
it doesn’t matter that she was in a dark place or that she was unstable that was just horrible..
you are so so strong..
I was abused as well..and I know how you may feel..
I built high walls around me and I found it extremely hard to let anyone in.i couldn’t even let friends in.
I couldn’t trust anyone,couldn’t love anyone and didn’t know how to accept love…
but here I am..i took it one step at a time..days when I felt like crying I did lots of it..days when I felt depressed I wrote it down..or just talked to someone..maybe you don’t have many friends but writing it here helps as well..
you will be okay..
that I am sure of..

keep being strong..
and don’t stop yourself from feeling your pain..
you can only go through it not around it..
have you heard from your dad?
have you ever tried to contact him?..

please please be strong..
it gets better I promise you