Anita
seems like none of your suffering was useful to you.
As to mine, well I have to say some of it was useful.
I can at least appreciate how tough some jobs are, and how resilient some people are to do them. Turning up day after day for more punishment. Or maybe it doesn’t seem like punishment to them. They just do it. Don’t think how hard it is.
My problem may well be that I don’t know what true suffering is. I try to imagine how hard it would be to recover from child abuse, a victim of a paedophile. Those people must find it hard to raise a smile about anything after that. And what about ex soldiers. The trauma must be horrendous. And they are expected to reconnect to normal society, as if nothing ever happened.
True healing is a remarkable thing. I hope you heal from those old teaching battle scars, Anita.