Thank you Anita. Currently I’m a little disregulated, but not hugely so. Earlier tonight, in the Purpose section, I wrote about a revelation I had involving the Ferris Bueller character Cameron Frye (not kidding). That revelation is key to why for a couple hours tonight I was doing better than I have in a month.

However, a little less than an hour ago, the guy downstairs came back home to his apartment. So there’s been some noises, and I tensed up and had trouble breathing freely. That makes sense, given I’ve been going through this for as long as I have. I haven’t of course gone to bed yet, so I’ll see what the experience is in a little bit.

I don’t have a big stuffed animal, but I do have a small plush kitty. I think I may have another pillow too–that could help.