Dear niike

To me, it sounds like you struggle with self-worth and confidence. Maybe it would be helpful to be less hard on yourself. You’ve accomplished a lot! You got into an art school – be proud of that. Believe in yourself and do what you love.

As far as your anxiety in social and intimate situations: that too usually stems from not loving oneself and therefore not being able to love anyone else. It’s a long and hard way until you love yourself fully, but you will get there. Maybe some counselling or anything like that would be helpful?

All the best to you!
Namaste