Dear Anita,

Thanks for your words. I would like to tell you once more that I’m deeply grateful for all of your help. It has helped me to understand a lot of things better.Thank you.

About your input I just have to say that you are right about all of the above, I guess now it’s time to address my situation of not believing that such man exists (its a really deep one because as I said and you quoted, I didn’t even think before saying it which means that it’s a really deep belief). I’ve been trying to address that now, but until now no results, I see that I’m more positive towards life and I don’t think that everyone is bad anymore which is a really good start ( I used to think that everyone was bad and people always had a ulterior motive for liking you, like as if it would be an exchange of favors).I’m really happy about this development, but I would like to develop myself more. To understand that it’s OK to long for closeness and intimacy,but that I don’t need to go for anything less than I deserve. And I deserve to be happy. That it’s OK to be alone, but not OK to be lonely. And to work on this deeply rooted beliefs will help me achieve my goal.
If you have any ideas of how can I work this better please let me know

Thank you so much once again

Rookie