Like… I don’t know who i am just like no one else does. I’ve learnt that’s ok. That’s human nature . I cringe at myself more often than not bit I’ve learnt to celebrate the small things . Hey you’re having a nice hair day today. Am I? Yeah come yo the mirror with me and have a look . Oh yeah. …
I never meet people since school who hate me. Everyone loves my company but I feel like a fraud but maybe. Just maybe. Those feelings if being a fraud are the fraudulent feelings . No one ever says no to me but when they do in feel utmost respect like I’ve been wishing for that. Some constructive criticism thank you Anita. They don’t say no to me not because I’m forceful but because I’m shiny and loving but I’m an actual proper eejit . Scottish word. I can’t grow without a NO .

Stuff like .. I’m so proud of myself for losing so much weight . First time I’ve been this thin without being a smack addict and yet I hide myself in shit clothes because I can’t believe it don’t trust that I’m not fat anymore and don’t have the confidence that I’m not fat anymore just in case it’s not real. Then no one will know.

Like…I need to help people but I’m neglecting myself . .. but then here I am in a place whee it’s ok to talk and help myself …

Ot sounds superficial.

We all have worries. I feel like o need you to know what o look like. Please may o feel safe to do that as it’s important to.me. Um. .. its ok to have self doubt. It’s humbling. I’m a fuck up.according to society but I love me. I’m proud of me. But no one is safe from self doubt. It’s human nature