Dear Anita,

I’m sorry for the late reply, but I had a full schedule (actually more than full) and I didn’t feel like writing here if I couldn’t have the necessary time, focus, and energy to do so.
Even though my schedule was quite full, some advances still managed to happen in the meantime. The guy contacted me to ask me if we could meet on his way back home (he had a layover of some hours here) and I said yes since I felt like I had to tell him some things. I had thought about everything and I wanted to say it.We met, and I told him that i’m looking for a person that doesn’t treat me like an option or a “safe bet” and that accepts the uncertainty of my profession and accepts me as a person who is here learning, like all of us are. he told me what he looked for in a guy (we definitely don’t want the same things) but in the end of the conversation he said that he would like to keep in touch with me, to which I told him that I had no problems with that (as long as we talk as friends). I felt sad after because I felt like I still haven’t found the connection and intimacy I’m looking for, but I also realized that this good friend of mine who is here and I told you about has been amazing with me and to be honest I never had a friend with whom I had such a good connection as with him, so overall I’m pretty happy and grateful for that. I feel like I’m getting what I need to get over this and to develop myself as well even though I still would like to have the connection I’m looking for. He not only helped me a lot (with things as simple as good and meaningful conversations) and has been one of the best friends I’ve ever had.
For now I guess I should stick to what you told me in the last post 🙂

Tell me what you think about it if you have the time, I would like to know what you think

Hope everything is well and hope to hear from you soon!

Rookie