………… if I had my days over again…. would I have been a junkie? would I have made the many mistakes I made on the way? would I have committed suicide more convincingly? would I…?

I’m not going to think about it -what I am going to think about is that today I asked myself the question and so in the future when I look back on this day I’ll see I had the choice to make changes today so I don’t carry more regrets to the future.

I’m going to conduct more thorough skin care regime. I’m going to work on continuing to try to reduce my smoking with a view to stopping. I’m going to wear clothes that fit me rather than the horribly baggy clothes until recently I used to wear
I’m going to learn to talk more slowly

I’m going to do these things from today. realised lastnight I’d been washing my face in cold water and not very thoroughly and I asked myself why.. hang on a minute, you’re telling me your skin care regime is rubbish because you cant be bothered to turn on the other tap? haha do you know how ridiculous that is? hahaha gerronwi’it