You are quite right. People DO break. I cant say that I don’t mind hurting, that would not be true. In this case its not the person that is doing the hurting, she is very loving and kind, its the circumstances. So I would suffer for this love just as I would if my child were trapped on the other side of the globe.

I’m continuing my search for constructive ways of coping with this time and the uncertainty of our situation. It is that uncertainty that brings out the difficult feelings. I feel her always within me, as a part of me. She is in each thought and moment. She is a deep part of my psyche, of my being. It is during times when I have no physical validation that I become stressed. Men do have different needs. But couple this with the truth that our fate is in the government’s hands, and as each day passes we near a decision. We don’t know when the decision will come, or if there will be more delays. We don’t have a clue as to the outcome. How does one wait with peace and patience under these circumstances? How does one live in the moment, fully, here and now? Its a rhetorical question i suppose…