Anita,

I’m continually searching for a way to navigate this situation better. I’ve been thinking along these lines lately. It’s not crazy at all. I think the Buddha made mention that the root of suffering is desire. What I’m beginning to practice is emotional detachment and self compassion during times when I am alone, while maintaining complete presence and love during times when we are able to communicate.

It’s a tricky balancing act for me, yet I believe this is the direction to go in. What I’ve noticed lately is that instead of the emotional “void” experience, I have more times of peace. When I do feel upset, I can at least cry and release the built up emotions. This is far preferable to feeling completely empty, to experiencing that hellish void.

Thank you so much for offering your thoughtful insight.