I’ll give you a recent example of my anxiety. I had to give an impromptu 2 minute speech last night at a public speaking course I attend. I developed a nervous tic with my arms, “ums” and “ahs”, looking down at the floor instead of at the audience, heart racing as if I was doing a 100 metre sprint, and thoughts racing to keep up saying things like” you idiot, why are you even here? you are hopeless, just quit now while you’re ahead, see how people’s heads are down, they are too embarrassed for you to even give you eye contact. Just admit it, you are a f###ing loser”
I have a panic attack every time I have to speak to a group in public, but am trying to come to terms with it.It is not easy. Good luck with yours.