Dear Melissa:

I suggested before that you have a talk with him when you are calm. I am augmenting my suggestion to just have a talk with him. What has kept you from having a conversation with him all this time (if you already answered, i do not remember at this moment)?

I suffered from a full blown OCD since I was a young child. I went on controlled trial-and-error-based-prescribed-mood altering drugs aka psychiatric medication for the purpose of stopping my obsessive thinking. I was prescribed Zoloft, an SSRI anti depressant. That was the beginning. It will be two years this month since I no longer take any psychiatric drug. Getting off those was a nightmare producing symptoms way worse than those that motivated me to start those drugs. My life as a result of taking those drugs did not improve one iota. It kept me In Place. And it was not a good place.

What is it that scares you so much about talking to him? From where I am, you have nothing to lose: you don’t want him back, so that is not an issue, then what is it?

I think the answer to the above may be key.

anita