* One more thing, Theresa. You wrote: “All i do is blame myself for being abused.” This is what characterizes abuse- that the abused takes the fault for being abused. Children do it, take the responsibility for being abused by parents. They take it into adulthood, feeling inadequate and wrong. Only through healing and placing the responsibility where it belongs, is healing possible. Only by getting the responsibility thing correct, can you heal and place the abuse in the past.

Therapy may be required. Through therapy coming to a place where you BELIEVE it was not your fault. You probably know this on a superficial intellectual level, but deep inside you believe that it was your fault.

This way part of you keeps abusing the inner child part of you, the innocent part of you. Part of you believed the abuser, took his side AGAINST you. And that part lives inside you. It keeps pointing to you in an accusing way.

And the innocent part, the accused, keeps being angry. She keeps saying: BUT IT WAS NOT MY FAULT!

Truth is, it was not your fault. And truth will keep pushing its way to your full awareness: it was not my fault! It was not my fault!

And until you believe the child in you, the innocent, abused part of you, she will not stop fighting for the truth, making herself heard. And each time your bf does something annoying, she comes out and says: it was not my fault! It was not my fault!

anita