Dear erin:

You asked: “why do i suffer so much in this life.”

My answer: because you were, as you stated, raped and abused. The fact that you were raped, let’s say, in 2015 (example), does not mean that as the year turns to 2016, the pain is deleted from the computer, from your brain. The pain of past abuse and rape is still there, registered and still hurting in the present. Sometimes you forget and feel no pain, but these are only breaks. The pain is still there. We, humans, suffer most often because other people hurt us.

Are you presently in contact with those who abused you? Is there still abuse going on? And what do you think you can do to make it so over time you hurt less about what happened to you?

anita