Thanks for answering me Anita.

I have been in contact with a psychotherapist before but I did not feel that we connected on any level at all but I still went for about 6 months until I stopped going. I did not feel any better after the therapy with her, because, for me, it felt like she was not trying to understand me at all.

I also believe that I am in need of a healing relationship, just having someone around who understands me. Not having that makes me feel terribly lonely. I used to be a happy teenager with a couple of close friends, but times change and everyone has moved on with their lives, which I understand.

I sometimes think that this depression/anxiety has taken over my life, like I am not the one who is in control of it anymore. Everything evolves around this negative state of mind. Have you ever felt like this?

I do not want to be this negative person anymore but I don’t know how to change my way of thinking and viewing myself. I just never feel good enough.