Name, There is ONLY one thing you can do! And that’s Hang in there! you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other!!! just take it day by day! I know your pain! I have suffered severe depression all my life! STILL do! I was diagnosed with a HUGE brain tumor 9 1/2 of surgery had to learn to walk and talk all over again! was out of work for 2 years because of it! still to this day I am so much pain from that surgery! I have no motivation, goals, dreams ECT. There is not one day that goes by that I don’t think about ending it! It was pointed out to me one time, there is ALWAYS Someone worse off then you! The blind, people in wheelchairs, the homeless that doesn’t have ANY family or a friend! You have to find away somehow! to keep going! Try helping someone less fortunate then you! that’s what I was told. it get gets your mind off yourself! They also told me, the more you focus on your problem the bigger it grows! just keep sharing on here to get out of your system! But, hang in there! REMEMBER, IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE! GOOD LUCK!