No no what I meant about my childhood was I’ve been like this since I was a kid(I told you im bad at telling my feelings) I never had a psychotherapist other than for my ADHD. I’m just trying to understand how people can move places leaving everything behind everything they’ve known and loved and how I can do the same. I depend too much on other peoples attention and affection. I get sad when no one is texting me. I always want more friends. How can I learn to not depend on other peoples attention and affection to make me happy? I understand you don’t have all the answers and are trying to help, I really appreciate you