yes, anita, my mother was burdening me with that I have tried many times to make it clear for her that it is her own business. I really want to know how not to feel devastated daily, because this is how I feel. I feel I have no control over my life. Indeed- I do not have control over people and will never have – but I always let things happening instead of being more proactive. And I have a hard time with my self esteem. So no boyfriend, and no family per se, I feel alone and bad about myself.