also, i’m not confident in my art enough for me to be on a basquiat level, so i’m not considering making money off of it. or expecting that anyway. and i’ve tried an art class in school, but i felt limited in what i could do so i decided not to major in that. just today my mom is irking me about “giving up” on work study and i feel pressured to do so many things. i just feel tired of trying to get jobs and all when no one hires or even calls. and this is not me saying i give up on it. i’ll try again. i definitely have more than enough time for it. but i feel like god is telling me i’m a failure. that i won’t be anything. i can’t get a job, i can’t get or keep a friend. i’m nothing…but then again he’s by my side. i feel like it’s a cycle he likes to see me run through over and over again.