Hi Wisdom,
I can certainly relate to how you are viewing life through the lens of fear. One thing that I have to remember is when, you are in the clutches of fear your view of your options is reduced and realize that my thinking is all black or white. When I was in your exact position and no college education I had to push myself to take the first step: Try! just find a job and apply. If that doesn’t work, try again. Eventually something will workout, what I have found is my perception of what things will be like and what they are has never matched and I have actually found things that I enjoy. Stop beating yourself up, put the hammer down and take small steps. If you need support keep asking. This is a great place for that.
Take care,
You will be in my prayers.
Make it a great day!