I’m glad you’re fascinated by it! It definitely feels like a unique and singular issue, although I’m sure it’s not.

I just miss him. I often have flashbacks of how things used to be – talking every day, Skype dates, him always being there, the things we used to say to each other – and it sometimes leaves me feeling lonely and unsatisfied with the way things are now, even though we’re still really close. He just used to be so crazy about me. We even talked about the prospect of a future together, though I’ll be the first to admit that was a foolish thing to do so soon and with so much at stake. But I miss being wanted in that way. I miss having that kind of love in my life and struggle to understand why he would want to let it go to waste. Doesn’t everyone want to find someone who loves them unconditionally?

In a nutshell, I don’t know why I find it so hard to just be perpetually grateful that I have this wonderful person in my life in the first place. That’s the way it should be. I know good and well that the most he can ever give me is one hell of a friendship, yet I still have moments of longing for the alternative. He’s my best friend and the man who broke my heart at the same time. How do I go about separating the two?