Hi Inky,

Thanks you for your advice and yes I agree that holiday is not “real” life!
Your comment about me saying I would casually toss my husband to find myself didn’t come across as I meant it to be.
I have had a very hard marriage the last 3 years and I question whether I should stay in it after all I have been through as he hurt me very much and I manage to let go of the anger and move on, but now question if that is what I want.
I know my happiness is not him, it is me and just want to find my purpose and if that is letting him go to do so I would, I know that sounds harsh but I have lived my life around him for the last 3 years and it got me no where and I realise that I should live my life for me and sometimes you have to let people go in your life to do that and find your happiness/self!