Dear Kathleen,

I read your post and can relate to how you feel, apart from the replacement child!
My mother always told me she wish she aborted me and I was never her child, so I know what it feels like to feel unwanted.

I have been on my own personal journey for the last 3 years trying to find myself and my purpose and I am like you and don’t think the advise of just be is very helpful.

I too feel lost in life and have no sense of purpose in my life and have worked on myself with flower remedies, to reikei, meditation, yoga, journaling and self heal/enlightenment books.

I am not where I am in my career and also want to have my own business but lost in what? As I enjoy so many things but lack finances to open business I truly want to do.

I tend to value my self over my career and I know that my job does not define who I am and I am finding this hard to accept as I have always been someone who has earned good money and been independent, but hated the corporate life.

I feel there is more to life than this daily grind and feel lost.

I think journaling has helped me just get out how I feel and be OK with ii and recognising it is ok to feel angry, lonely, upset, betrayed, the list can go on and on and it is good to cry and it is ok to feel your emotions.

I think one thing I have learnt is to trust my gut instinct and your own feelings and go by that.

I am currently reading a book called Broken Open: How difficult times can help us grow by Elizabeth Lesser and within the first chapter I could relate.

I have taken a break from reading it but will start again as I need some enlightenment to find myself and purpose in my life and get rid of this lost feeling.

I have also learnt in my journey to value your self and your worth as if you don’t, how do you expect others to?

I hope I have given you some advice or if not some sanity that you are not alone and hope we can both help each other through our journey of lost/purpose x